New Beginnings....

         So after some looking around and browsing of Avmatch.com I have finally stumbled upon someone that I been talking to and enjoying our time together. We have already gone on a few dates which I have enjoyed tremendously. Although its still early in the whole process I am taking things slow with this one because I do think there is something amazing about her. Her name Is Mystina.

         Between us we do happen to share quite a few interests. She likes anime almost as much as I do. We literally talked for a night sharing silly songs from anime's and stuff guessing where they were from and needless to say she passed the test. We enjoy similar music as well although mine may be a bit more diverse I still enjoy her recommendations. Aside from having similar mentalities she is someone I hope will eventually confide in me her true feelings because I truly am starting to fall for this woman. She may not know this but i do think of her a lot. From things to do to places to go. She is always on my mind lately.
         

         We just finished a date tonight of watching Spirited Away. Granted I have seen it and most likely she has seen it. It was a new experience having watched it with her that made it all the more memorable. While being on a Totoro bed none the less. But I definitely am very happy with her. I hope to continue to make many more posts of us as well. Thank you Mystina for coming into my life.

What is a relationship anyway???

     Well it's been sometime since I last made a post. Without saying I am once again single. Although, I am currently seeing someone which I hope will be the one granted its only been like  a week or 2, but I hope Callie is the one for me. But I digress as this post is not about her in particular just a shout out. But what I really want to bite my teeth into are these people that have no common courtesy in taking responsibility for there actions.
       Now this is no way going to be a bashing on ex's post. I'm simply talking about the philosophical aspects here that I have observed. So in my experience I know who I am as a person. I know I can sometimes get possessive and obsessive in a way with the woman I am with. Now To me I do it in a very loving and caring reason. There are people out there that are these things and they do not bring to the table the qualities that show that one cares. I trust the woman I am with fully and believe in communication as a important foundation in any relationship bar none a must. I'm always up front and honest about my intentions which makes me a genuine person. So With that in mind lets move ahead.
       If you just broke up with a person you said you love and then hook up with another person is that okay? Now I am going to be honest I have done this in my time in second life. Love is blind and lessons are to be learned. But, I feel what defines this argument is the fact if you learn from the recent failed relationship. If you are just going head first into a relationship because you don't want to be alone then you are just setting yourself up for failure. Once again I have been stung by this as well. The truth is being alone is just boring to me. I need someone there to talk to. To get to know. But I refuse to make the same mistake again. I will wait for the one I am with to make the first move before I follow so I do not get hurt again. But I digress back to the original argument which is did you learn anything from what caused the failed relationship. Was it more of a personal preference that was not satisfied or was it something that affected you as a person is what I would most likely ask my self.
      In regards to if it was a personal preference ie the person I was with was obsessive and possessive as an example. I would ask this question did these two behaviors occur for the right reasons or the wrong reasons. Let me dive into that further. A person who is obsessive is someone who is thinking about a person to further there own agenda. Now the negative aspect of that pertains to the agenda benefiting the one individual instead of the couple where the positive aspect of a obsessive person is where they are thinking of the in respect from both sides to further a common goal. I feel there needs to be a sense of maturity on both sides to truly understand the difference in these concepts. This would go for a person who is possessive of course with different explaining the negative being not trusting the individual and the positive aspect being more of a caring aspect. These are definitely the aspects you have to think about as they mean drastically different things. I have a person who was obsessive about me and possessive for the right reasons then the wrong. Because I know at least if they had those behaviors for the right reasons then they be willing to be compromised with versus someone who only cares about themselves if I happened to have a issue with that. That is what you should ask yourself when it comes to a personal reason for splitting in a failed relationship. Did you do it for these reasons or did you just take the easy way out?
      Now in regards to if it was something that affected you as a person there is a whole different side of the story. We as humans are not perfect any person that say they are perfect is simply a liar there is no such thing as nature has shown nothing is perfect. We live in a world of imperfection. So if you happen to meet someone that no amount of compromise can be achieved without drastically changing ones on personality and there very foundation then that is very understandable for a relationship to not survive. There should never be a insurmountable give or take in a relationship just for it to survive. It should be fluid and effortless. The less that has to be changed the better. I would say this is the most common reason for relationships to end.
      So the moral to my story. Learn from your mistakes, but don't take them with you into a new relationship because your only setting yourself up for failure. Take things slow what seems to be nice at the beginning tends to fade away after a while. Find the person who you see with for the rest of your life rather then in the moment because then your only attempting to fill a need that does not equate into a healthy and long lasting relationship.

   
   

Welcome to my life.....

Where to began....Lets start with me. I am a 20 year old something man who has a taste for all that is love and music. I would not classify myself as amazing, perfect, or anything in between. I am like any other man. I have been playing this game we call Second Life for quite some time dating back all the way to 2007. I have no fashion sense in my head only my preference.

This is how I currently look in Second Life. I have upgraded my entire body to Bento or Mesh. If you want to look like me please refrain. Just be yourself. I can script in second life as well as mix music as I am a DJ. I would not call me a professional photographer by any means. Although if you like my pics you can thank my custom built computer. For all the ladies looking for whatever I am sorry to say I am taken by an amazing woman who I have plans to be with in both worlds. But more of her will come you can rest assured.

For those who have known me for a while or in any amount of time I am sorry if I have hurt you or thank you for being my friend. Yeah pretty black and white here for me as mentioned I am not perfect. But I have a sense of being the best I can be and giving myself what I feel I deserve. I will not tolerate being ridiculed or judged by others as they have no room to talk in any regard of who I am or was. I have always been and will continue to be me. I have never changed in this regard only adapted and allowed those who I see fit to see the real me. If I can offer any advice in my time and what i have learned it would be this.

Respect yourself of who you are. You nor anyone else is perfect. Treat those how you wish to be treated and forgive those who think less. Do not judge others unless you are prepared to be judged yourself. I feel Idealism is a good thing to have. Pursue your dreams aggressively because I can tell you if you simply sit back and think they will come to you they will not.

My goal of this blog is to help unwind and maybe put a little insight into how I work. I have been called insane, a manipulator, a heart breaker, and a liar. I don't really care if you think these things of me. I can tell you for sure though you are wrong by a large margin. I'm not going delve into such concepts that are below me and naive at best. Those who are close to me know the real me and whatever else you think is just a fake facade of the complex being known as Jeffry Heartsdale.

Now you may be asking why did you pick Heartsdale for your last name. Well back in 2007 you were allowed a fixed last name and out of the many to choose from I choose this because I felt it fit who i was as a person. I am by far and above all a romantic. My love is hard and never ending. Amplified by only time and combined with my sexual nature is something I am proud of. If you think that means I cheat just to get sex you are wrong I am loyal. The person I am with I treat like a queen as they should be treated. Intense and extremes are something I am known for and have scared many people away or broken up with in this regard.

Well I am sure that probably covers the basics of who I am. First post goal achieved. Thank you for reading and as always have a great day.